Permission to Write

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My summer reading kicked off with Leonora Carrington’s The Hearing Trumpet. Carrington was a surrealist painter, so her novel is a wonderfully surrealistic narrative. I won’t go into any analysis here, but since finishing the novel, I’ve thought much about this quote from the book:

If I remember correctly writers usually find some excuse for their books, although why one should excuse oneself for having such a quiet and peaceful occupation I really don’t know. Military people never seem to apologize for killing each other yet novelists feel ashamed for writing some nice inert paper book that is not certain to be read by anybody. Values are very strange.

The speaker is the novel’s narrator, a 92 year-old woman named Marian Leatherby. I was amused by how true these words are, at least for myself. While I self-identify as a writer, it’s often with a measure of apology that I introduce myself at dinners and such.

Do you feel this way about choosing the writer’s life? I can think of little else to do with my days than write quietly, but why do I feel like it’s such an indulgence? What do you think?